{"id":12115,"date":"2013-03-17T09:00:08","date_gmt":"2013-03-17T14:00:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/?p=12115"},"modified":"2013-03-15T11:28:44","modified_gmt":"2013-03-15T16:28:44","slug":"twenty-nine","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/2013\/03\/17\/twenty-nine\/","title":{"rendered":"Twenty Nine"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>*Gulp.*<\/p>\n<p>This may be the first year I&#8217;ll literally cringe at saying my age aloud. Maybe it&#8217;s the wrinkles on my forehead or that I haven&#8217;t followed my meticulous life map I drew out for myself the day I met Nate, but something about that number just doesn&#8217;t feel right. Twenty-nine was supposed to be well on the way to being a grown up. We were supposed to have solid jobs with benefits, our cars paid off, one kid and another on the way. I&#8217;d stop wearing pajama pants every day and shop more at Ann Taylor Loft than the Disney Store. My vocabulary would be better (See? I would have replaced &#8220;better&#8221; with something well&#8230; better) and I was supposed to have trained for a half marathon in my free time. I was supposed to <em>have<\/em> free time and cook dinner every night and be the perfect housewife for my husband.<\/p>\n<p>My life may not look anything like it was supposed to, but in most ways, it&#8217;s even better than I&#8217;d imagined. Sure, we may be on the road more days than we&#8217;re home, but this life is pretty amazing. I have to remind myself of that sometimes when I&#8217;m working 12 hour days and haven&#8217;t said more than a few work-related words to Nate. The pounds I put on while editing the years away are increasingly difficult to shed, especially when so much of our lives are on the road and &#8220;healthy eating&#8221; means getting the snack wrap at McDonald&#8217;s instead of the Big Mac. We moved to a new city two years ago and we haven&#8217;t actually had time to make friends- Something I didn&#8217;t think much about last year until I wanted to throw a holiday party at our new home and realized how small the guest list would be.<\/p>\n<p>When I turned 28, the inevitable baby talk started getting tossed around by certain friends and family members. We wanted to be parents yesterday, but as I draft this post from Hawaii in the middle of a month-long trip away from home (and proof read it in Asheville, NC), well&#8230; The &#8220;baby&#8221; word doesn&#8217;t quite fit in our crazy puzzle of a life yet. I know our friends and family mean well, but I know in my heart it&#8217;s just not our time.<\/p>\n<p>All I want for my birthday this year is for well-meaning friends and family to back off that &#8220;b&#8221; word for a few years. It&#8217;s something we think about and look forward to every day, but I need to just love twenty nine for what it is now. I can&#8217;t take one more person telling us that we could have a kid now and no one&#8217;s ever 100% ready to be a parent and that I&#8217;m not getting any younger- Trust me, I know. But I just need to be happy with the me <em>now<\/em>, because I can&#8217;t shed any more tears about not being in the place in life I&#8217;d imagined for us this year. Happy someday baby talk is always a good thing, but let&#8217;s ease off the pressure a bit. :\/<\/p>\n<p>So&#8230; Less overweight than twenty-seven, child-less, pajama pants all day, and crazy insanely happily married- This is Jensey at twenty-nine.<\/p>\n<p>And because sometimes we all need a reminder:<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-12277\" alt=\"You are where you need to be, just breathe.\" src=\"http:\/\/rootweddings.goodgallery.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/03\/482501_10151237899886895_177090920_n.jpg\" width=\"500\" height=\"500\" srcset=\"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/03\/482501_10151237899886895_177090920_n.jpg 500w, https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/03\/482501_10151237899886895_177090920_n-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/03\/482501_10151237899886895_177090920_n-300x300.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 500px) 100vw, 500px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>*Gulp.* This may be the first year I&#8217;ll literally cringe at saying my age aloud. Maybe it&#8217;s the wrinkles on my forehead or that I haven&#8217;t followed my meticulous life map I drew out for myself the day I met Nate, but something about that number just doesn&#8217;t feel right. Twenty-nine was supposed to be [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_genesis_hide_title":false,"_genesis_hide_breadcrumbs":false,"_genesis_hide_singular_image":false,"_genesis_hide_footer_widgets":false,"_genesis_custom_body_class":"","_genesis_custom_post_class":"","_genesis_layout":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-12115","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-personal","7":"entry"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12115","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=12115"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12115\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12282,"href":"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12115\/revisions\/12282"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=12115"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=12115"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rootweddings.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=12115"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}